Selling selling selling

I'm pretty excited here...I've been sitting in the offices of a major Energy Star (R) home builder for a few weeks and I've got my name on 3 contracts. It's so great to know that I am finally seeing some fruit from my labor of schooling, testing, sitting open houses and talking til I'm blue in the face about houses, is all paying off. The bad part about selling houses that haven't been built yet is you don't get paid til it closes and that could be 4 months out...I guess I'll just consider it our Christmas fund. :)

I'm getting to do what I love and it's just great! I have really been blessed to get to do things I love...like be IN love with an amazing man (who happens to be as crazy about me as I am about him!), a cool (if I do say so myself) mom, a friend with big shoulders to cry on, and Realtor. I love all these hats. Sometimes it gets stressful to NEED to be something to someone all the time and yet I remember all those times and years I was lonely and begged for God to make me useful to SOMEONE...well I got it! :) I wouldn't have it any other way.

I have to remind myself in the bad times that I count these things as blessings in the good times. The stress can really put a person in a place where they aren't nice to be around. I have a family member that I think lives 24/7 in that place and has for so long that she wouldn't know what happy or relaxed was if it was given to her in a package.

Yes, being a mom can be stressful but it's all worth it when they do something to prove that they HAVE been listening! :) Same thing with any other hat you wear, there are good times and not so good times, you have to have to experience the bad to appreciate the good. Did I want to go through pain in the past? No, but I'm so glad I experienced the kind of pain that I did so that I can fully appreciate the love my husband and I share. I never want to take him for granted and I try to do something for him everyday to show my love.

My emotions are all over the board this week (and it's not girl stuff) and sometimes I think it would feel good to just sit down and have a good cry...but I might not stop. It's so weird to feel such extreme emotion like this and yet truly be happy. I've always had extreme emotions in misery and pain...but to be happy and feel this level of sad at the same time? Is that the ultimate oxymoron?

I look around at the pain in the world and even just in my own country the politics and unrest and bickering and wasted money and it is easy to begin to feel fearful but I just have to remember that the powerful and only God that I serve has a plan for my life:

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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